Post # 69, hurhurhur.

I just noticed that this is indeed post 69. xD It's been a few days of me just deciding what to blog about. I've started this same exact post three times now. This'll be the fourth, if I decide to keep it. Well, Sunday was easter. Duh. I read a -loudspeaker interrupts- OHMYGOD, MR. WOLFRAM, STFU. Jesus. Okay, anyway. Sunday was easter, and Jesus was turnt up. (please excuse my fag-baggery) 4/20, mayne! (again, 'scuse me) The loudspeaker keeps going off. щ(ಠ益ಠщ) Well. xD This post is turning out as more of a fail than I'd  hoped. It's getting worse with each tick of the keyboard. But yass. I've currently taken up residence at my Nana's lifecoach's house. ( °٢° ) It's purty. ಥ⌣ಥ (WAIT, SIDE STORY. Whenever I see the word "purty", it reminds me of something from this movie where this really old hippie pedo guy goes, "You got a purty mouth," xD!!!) Miss Lifecoach lady is really lenient with me. I have my phone and laptop back, and can use them whenever I want, provided I do something for her like wash dishes or fold laundry. It's like she's paying me with phone and laptop privileges, which is cool by me. Jeez, this post is gonna be boring for you guys, but I'm having a blast writing it.

NEW PARAGRAPHHHH~! Surprisingly, I have nothing to talk about. The freshman kid, "Bob", is out of my life for good. OH, I COULD TELL YOU ABOUT THAT. I was sitting on the grand staircase one morning and he sat beside me while I watched YouTube. He kept staring at my you-know-whats ~(<_<)~ so I scooted away and made a face of what I assumed was absolute disgust and resentment. He looked at me like I was nuts and said, "Welp, I guess I'll leave you alone now." At that moment, the heavenly choir sang, I swear it. I wanted to stand on the roof and sing hallelujah. The beast is gone from my life. ∩(︶▽︶)∩ No more annoyances :D! Happy Jenn is happy. On a different note, I've gotten really into drawing lately. :o I'd upload some of my photos, but I have an android phone, and an Apple operating system. ._. The two don't mix. BUT. I will find a way. (✿◠‿◠)

Oh, and I've decided to let you guys communicate with me via textNow. I'm not giving out my real phone number, and if this goes bad, all I have to do is delete the app. It's free to text me, and you can get ahold of me any time. o(≧o≦)o Just tell me your name and say something like, "I read your blog" so I don't freak out. cx Le number is 720-477-2298, and if you want to send me pictures, just ask, it's a complicated process. ._. ANYWHO. This post took two days to write, so forewarning, it'll be a long one. The next paragraph is considered my second-day post. Coz I don't wanna start another one.

So, some kid in my class pulled out a ukelele (right? e.e) and started playing. It'd be more entertaining if people would stfu. It's so funny listening to him. But yeah. xD Testing time..like, now. I'm soooo tired. (¬_¬) But at least I finished testing for this period. (there's been a 30 minute time gap. o3o) -yawns- I. WANNA. GO. HOME. (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ

 I just checked out my friend Cuppi's blog, and -sighs- She seems so happy without me. So maybe it's for the best that we aren't speaking. I don't want to text her, coz, well..I don't want her to get all mad. Funny thing is, though, I've forgiven her for things much worse than what I did. I don't know whether to be mad or not. I'm over the fact of being sad. Friends for three/four-ish years? Yeah, totally no reason to be sad. -senior sarcasm over here- Whatever. What's done is done. I've said my apologies. Plenty of times. I guess it's time to move on. (Jeez, this feels like a break up. :I -literally close to tears, wtf-) Sometimes I wonder if she ever checks out my blog like I do hers. But then I see my views and go, "Mm, nope." I do miss, her, yeah. And I keep hoping that when she forgives me, she'll talk to me again. We were supposed to be friends forever. Things change, I guess. We've both changed. (now it really sounds like a breakup)

Cuppi, if you ever read this (I doubt you will), I want you to know that I'm more sorry than words could ever describe. I didn't expect to be this sad after losing you, but I am. You seem so happy by yourself. Well, with Jew, I mean. I'm glad to see you both doing well, and if you ever need my help with anything, you have my number, and I also posted my other number up somewhere in the post. There's no way I won't see your text. I'd love to talk to you again, even if it's only a simple "hey, how are you?" I know I fucked up. Big time. And usually I wouldn't give two shits about trying to fix it. But you are, well, you were my best friend. So I'm trying hard. I hope we can talk again. I love you, girlie. I have your summer camp application if you still wanna go~! <3 ^-^

And with that, I must go. I hope you all enjoyed my post. (my one reader *ahem* ;~;) I hope to post again soon. I'll try to bring in a co-writer of some sort. Hell, I dunno, I'll give my friends the password and let them go nuts. Enjoy that. ._. Anyway, I'll see you lovelies soon. Until then, adeau~

I lied?

I'M SORRY I HAVEN'T POSTED. OMG. ASDFGHJKL;'. I'M NOT A LIAR. ; - ; I've been really busy with writing two essays for school, reading a novel, band evaluation. Etc, etc. x. x But I'm here now~! How are things with you guys? Anyway, cut the small-talk. The freshman is back. Yes, you heard right. He came waddling up to me yesterday, going, "-tremble tremble- J-Jenn? Is it o-okay to talk t-to you...ag-again? You good..?" I wanted to rip his head off and screech, "I was good until you came back!" Instead, I kind of twitched and nodded. ._. Why must everything he does be so annoying? Y'know, I don't think it's him. Once someone annoys me, no matter what they do, I will always find them annoying. It's incredibly hard for me to like you once I've decided I don't. But with that off my chest, time to move on! Besides all the homework and shet, my life is finally...okay-ish. I haven't been "summoned to court" yet, so my personal house-arrest isn't all that bad. I don't really go places anyway. xD #lazyfolife But yeah. I'm severely sleep-deprived and way too happy. I have way over another hour in my first period and after I'm done with this blog post, I'm gonna go dick around on the interwebs. OH. I'll go watch Markiplier and PewDiePie. SUBSCRIBE TO THEM. -thumbs up- (づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ This post is all over the place. ಠ_ಠ But yah. I'm hungry and tired and nyeh and bleh and wah. -flips table- (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ I think I'm gonna end this post here, there's nowhere else for this to go except downhill. xD YAY, LET'S GO ON A DOWNHILL ADVENTURE! -rolls down a hill- okokok, but srsly. I must go, my people need me. Until soon, stay beautiful, my lovelies. Adeau.~

No Random Title?

I wanted to start this blog post by saying..ahem..I am an absolute 'tard. Lemme explain. I'm the worst person to try and get angry. See, coz I'm so funny. (right, that's the reason) I'll be in the middle of yelling at someone, and think of something funny, then just die laughing. NO ONE TAKES ME SRSLY. I CAN GET ANGRY. HELL HATH NO FURY LIKE MINE. -giggle- Noooo. (¬_¬) Faaak. Anywho, hellu, my lovelies. Have I ever told you how much I love blogging for you guys? Coz I do. Srsly. Oh wait, I already did tell you. Hurr. (genius Jenn strikes again) Jesus, this blog is spiraling downward quite quickly now. I don't really think I can attrack a new audience coz, well, I'm me. Wait, wait, wait, wait, asdfghjkl;'. This will not be a srsly srs post. MOVING ONNN~! -flails-

ATTACK OF THE KAWAII EMOTICONS~! (◕‿◕✿) (︶ω︶) (✿ ♥‿♥) (¬▂¬) (✖╭╮✖) (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ彡┻━┻ ｡◕ ‿ ◕｡ ᕦ(ò_óˇ)ᕤ ლ(́◉◞౪◟◉‵ლ) ᕙ(⇀‸↼‶)ᕗ ( 　ﾟ,_ゝﾟ) LOL. That last one is my favorite. xD It looks like it's saying, "srsly faggot?" -dead- I think I'm gonna end this post here. I'm really tired and can't find anything else to talk about. ヽ(ｏ`皿′ｏ)ﾉ -dramatic yawn- I shall post again tomorrow. Until then, stay beautiful, my lovelies. Adeau.~

Everyday Postings!?

Yasssss. So hei. c: As you can tell by the title, I'm gonna try and start posting either everyday or every other day. Depending on what I'm doing in class and how much free time I have. (-yawn-) It is currently 7:28 AM in Kentuckysville, and I'm tired as fuck. That's some legit tired right thurr. OKAY. There is a point to this post. I'm gonna rant~! (ノಠ益ಠ)ノ

Don't read this if you don't like people ranting. Mk. Let's begin. Why the fuck do schools start so early? Okay, like, mine starts at 7:30. I have friends that don't even have to be up until 7:30. I wake up at 5:45 every fucking morning. Statistically speaking, the human brain isn't available for proper functioning until after 10:30 AM. Fuck you, school, fuck you. I get home at 3 PM, yeah, not that late, right? It's hell anyway. I spend 30 to 45 minutes on the damn bus going home. 

 As if that's not bad enough, I'm constantly tired. What, with the waking up before the sun rises and all. How do people do it? I know that in some jobs, people have to wake up earlier than 5:45, and if they read this, they'd probably be pissed at my lack of...enthusiasm over waking up later than them. To add fuel to the fire, my important classes are in the morning, and generally, we like to take exams. It's hard to focus when all I can think about is going to sleep. My grades aren't bad, but I have a feeling they'd be better if I slept in another hour or so.

In conclusion, (getting all formal and shit) waking up early fucking sucks donkey nuts. Make the elementary school kids wake up earlier, they're more versatile than us older kids. The kindergarteners even get nap time, like, what the fuck? I want nap time. (¬_¬) I wake up sometimes with bags under my eyes. Even my bags have bags. (if you know what I mean. wait, wat) Either way, I'm almost done with school anyway. I'm hoping to graduate in December. Afternoon classes, here comes Mama! And with that, my rant comes to a close. (✿◠‿◠)


NEW TOPICCC!

Normal time, yey! This post is gonna be long. If you get what I mean ಥ‿ಥ -pedo grin- okay, no, I'm already in trouble with the law. OHMYGOD. I'll tell you guys what happened over spring break, mk? Not like you know me personally. (no offense, I needed justification. ; ~ ;) I'd gone to the mall with one of my best friends, Lauren. We were having a good time, laughing, drinking mango smoothies, shopping to our heart's contenst, when it happened. As a joke, we went into the store Claire's and looked at bows for our hair. Jokingly, I looked up at the camera and slipped one into my bag. (keep in mind, I was being a smartass, I knew they could see me, it was indeed a joke.) I immediately felt horrible for playing such a retarded joke for no reason, so I took the bow out of my bag, looked up at the camera, mouthed an "I'm kidding," and put the bow back.

As I was leaving the store, two managers and a mall security cop came up and said, "We need the bow you put into your bag." At that, my heart sank and I knew they didn't think it was a joke. I said to them, as I was shaking terribly, "I-I put it..back.." and led them to where I'd placed it. I was then led through the mall, to the security office, where the police were called. Within minutes, the officer'd shown up. They decided to ban me from the mall for two years. And the best part is, the bow was only 8$. (the second best part, being the fact that I put the bow back, and mouthed "I'm just kidding.") I apparently have to go to court and "plead my case" even tho Claire's decided not to press charges. -feins relief- Oh thank the lord, what ever was I going to do? I know. Not give a fuck? It was a joke, the camera saw it, my friend saw it, I did it. Putting it back, mouthing an apology. But I should've known. Claire's is really shitty and snotty anyway. I wouldn't wipe my ass with any of their products. Crappy quality, expensive as fuck. Why do you think I picked that store for my joke? Anyway, after all that happened, I got home and had to give up my phone and laptop to my grandmother. (she already hates me, by the way, this was the icing on the fucking cake.) Which is why I can only post from school.

All of this is really harsh, y'know? I can understand the banning from that particular store, and maybe me paying a small fine for being an ass. But no, they banned me from the mall itself, all the retaurants around it, and a few of the outside stores. Not to mention the fact that I have to go to court. Over an 8 dollar hair bow. Really, Kentucky? Really? Chill your nipples. I could understand if I'd stolen a fucking 80 dollar necklace. But an 8 dollar bow? Shit, next thing you know, someone will be getting lucked up for life for stealing a candy bar. The fuck? I'm so done. I shouldn't have done it, yeah. I just didn't realize that the justice system was full of pricks. Anyway, I learned my lesson. No more stupid-ass jokes like that. I'm gonna end this post here. Now that you know what happened. I'll post again on...err... -trying to think- Oh, today's Wednesday. o. o I'll post tomorrow! Until then, stay beautiful, my lovelies. Adeau.~

School again.

It's too damn loud in my classroom right now. I just got off of a very boring spring break. Nothing went according to plan, in fact, I got into quite a lot of trouble. With a lot of people. x'D Not gonna go into details, coz I don't wanna be judged. >_>; Mama made mistakes over break. No phone, no laptop. Like, I was in trouble. I was lucky to have my DVD player. ._.  (internal agruments, yey. ಥ⌣ಥ) Ohyass, I went to see Divergent over break. -flails- Movie review tiem~! I didn't actually read the book, so everything I already knew about it, it was because of the ads I saw. The movie itself was really really well-made and full of action and explosions. From the beginning, it's just gogogo. Doesn't slow down until the very end. (apparently Twilight made it a thing to open a movie with a monologue. Fk you, Twilight. Fk you.) I guess I could tell you the plot of the movie. Aherm. In Chicago, IL, the remaning population of IL is devided into five factions: Dauntless; the fearless ones, the protectors; Amity; the kind ones, the ones who believe in living off the land (farmers basically); Erudite, the smart ones, the ones trying to overthrow Abnegation (the law, basically); Abnegation; the government of the factions, selfless, and quick to reject vanity; and Candor, they're the logic thinkers, the lawers, so to speak; they are very...blunt. Anyway, the story follows a young girl named Beatrice (later changed to Tris), as she goes through the process of being named Divergent, meaning she could fit into and live in any of the factions. She's hunted by Erudite and yadda yadda. They brainwash the Dauntless into capturing and killing almost all of the Abnegation faction. It's hard to explain after that. She escapes with "Four". (a really hot guy. like unf mama.) And yeah. (round of applause for those shitty movie reviewing skills. cx)

I just realized that it took me two days to write this post. Never let it be said that I didn't suffer for my blog. (I actually haven't suffered xD I just don't have my laptop, so I can only post at school.) DAY DEUH. And I'm even more tired than yesterday. Went to bed earlier, too, wtf? （￣へ￣）-internal conflicting- NEARGHHH. I'm gonna end this post here. I'll probably post later in the week, I dunno. My posts are becoming more and more..well, boring. ಠ_ಠ I made this to vent my feelings, but. BUT. I don't wanna scare off my readers. (reader*) Anywhooo. As I said, I'll try to post again. Or when something interesting happens. (HAHAHAHA. Hahaha...ha...haaa...yeah. •⊙ω⊙•) Until then stay beautiful, my lovelies. Adeau.~

Back already?

It's been about four days since my last post. I figured I'd be gone for at least a month, what with all the shit going on. (I'm out of the bet, so swear time again.(~￣▽￣)~ ) But truth is, things are kind of better. I'm slowly starting to trust Jase again. (I saw him go off on his ex and I was like yass gaga yass.☻ᴥ☻ ) I would've posted sooner, but eh. I've been busy with getting stuff ready for spring break. -flails- ERMERGERD GERS. SPRING BREAK 2014. YASSS. Sorry. Mama lost it for a split second. I was going to spend it with my friend Cuppi, but um. Yah. ._. But no worries, I gots to go prom dress shopping. (◕‿-) Prommmm. DUDE. THIS YEAR IT'S GONNA BE ON A FUCKING BOAT. A LEGIT FUCKING BOAT. With an upper-deck somethin' and another deck somethin'. (wasn't paying attention. spaced out after I heard it was on a fucking boat.) I've got a date to go, and no it's not my boyfriend. Is that bad? I mean, Jase wouldn't like prom anyway. Plus, the guy I'm going with looks just like my cousin. So there are no feelings thurr. It'd be awkward as fuck. xD Like..eeey, cuz, wanna dance? Bleargh. I keep sneezing. Damn you, spring. -sniffle sniffle- But shet, I like posting about prom. ; A ; Me and my date are going with my best friend, Abby, and her boyfriend (lil... -insert bad word- I dun liek him much. -3-) Josh. I'm going sanguine (blood red), and they're going necromancer (violet). It'll be so kawaii. ಥ‿ಥ I like doing kawaii emotes. (◕‿◕✿) Yass. Yaaaass. anyway, I've said it before and I'll say it again, thank you to the absolutely lovely people (person. ahem.) that read this. I do like -sneezes- fawk. -sniffle- Ruined my moment. (¬_¬) Lemme try again. -kneels down like Romeo did- I LURF YOU GAIZ. -sniffle- not again. ; u ; Behehe. I'm done, you get the point.

NEW PARAGRAPH, NEW TOPIC. FK YEA. It's Friday, Friday, gotta get down on Fridayyy~ Ohmylordno. Wtf to talk about. It's been a while since I talked about IMVU. :o and I only talked about it because, y'know, my friend ad blog partner wanted me to. Guess I could talk about that again. Um. There are a lot of creeps on thurr. xD I wish I could give out my username. (even if I did, I wouldn't add anybody I didn't talk to first. >_>;) Neargh. I dun wanna talk about it. -flails- I wanna keep this post going coz it's currently 8:19 a.m. and my class isn't dismissed until 8:53. BLAHHHHH. I think I'm gonna go dick around on the computer. OHWAIT. xD Before I do, I was right about before. (when I said my school has access to my blog) They can monitor everything I post. So, principal, administrators, and just..grownups that read this without my knowledge..EAT A DICK. I don't like you, nor do I like the fact that you read my blog. Df you think I'm doin' anyway? Fuckin' selling secrets to Al Qaeda? Jesus. (¬_¬) LOL. Watch me get called up to the office for being an ass. Oops? c; I think I'm gonna end this post here. Before I get my blogspot deleted by the school. xD Until next time, stay beautiful. Adeau~

Byebye, Blogspot.

     I actually considered skipping school today. Woke up and was like, "mmm, nope." I think I'm gonna make this post a serious one, so if you don't like that, feel free to just read other posts of mine. c: Now, srs tiem. My relationship just keeps getting worse. Well, from my end. With each passing day, I trust Jase less and less all because of mistakes he's made in the past. (in other relationships) His ex is a very very good friend of mine, and has been telling me things that startle me. Normally, when Jase tells me things like, "I'm going out with friends," or, "My parents are taking my phone away," or, "My phone wouldn't charge," I wouldn't bat an eyelid. I trusted him, yeah. But not now. My friend, his ex, told me, and I quote, "I was suspicious, so I called him. A girl answered and said they'd had some fun at his house. When I asked him about it, he claimed it was his sister. Um. His sister doesn't live with them." At which point, I asked Jase if he had a sister. My heart sank when he easily lied and said, "Nope." I don't know who to believe. He tells me the exact same stuff he told her. I'm scared, alone, and just..tired. Physically and emotionally. I don't know how much more I can take. There are so many things I'm already battling..an unsupportive family, failing grades, and a steady decline in friends.

     But whatever. I'll keep going. I'll keep living the oblivious lie that Jase wants me to. And when the time comes, I'll confront him, then finally..I'll just..leave. Back to being alone in a life that's spiraling downward. Yeah, this post is dark and depressing. (like the golden days of yore.) But I do remember warning you. Congrats if you could stomach this post thus far. There shouldn't be any more..um.."dark" posts until the day we um.. :I yeah, break it off. Then I'll write a post bashing on him. (call me a bitter ex, but there are a lot of reasons for me to bash on him, like, now.) I feel better now that I got it out. (considering the fact that I haven't called him out yet) Now that just leaves me with two prominent emotions: tiredness and sorrow. Yes. Sorrow, still. I think it's embedded in me now. There really isn't anything to be happy about. I can't trust anyone. Except, maybe, my family. But, as I said, very unsupportive.

     See, my lovelies? I'm not as happy as my posts lead you to believe. Truth is, I'm the most miserable person I know. But don't pity me, I don't want that. I wrote this simply because keeping it bottled up was making me hurt even more. Now all of you know. And, somehow, that comforts me. I don't think I'll be posting for a while. A long while. (if I do, it'd be random, boring summaries of my day) I'm sorry if this disappoints any of you. But Mama needs time to herself. Time to be alone with her thoughts. Until then, goodbye, my lovelies. Stay beautiful. Adeau~

In with the new!

As you can cleeeearly see, I remodeled my blog. Eh? Ehhh? c; But yiss. Hope you like 'et. Happy Easter, my lovelies! -hops around like a bunny- (wait, it is this weekend, right? ._.) Dunno what else to say. I couldn't wait until I got home to post, so..yeah. xD I'm still in first period. :B Fadadada. I'm hungry. Or something. I dunno, my stomach feels weird. Maybe it's heartburn? W-t-f? Aaaaaanywho, I must be going. Yay for another short post~! Adeau~