Back already?

It's been about four days since my last post. I figured I'd be gone for at least a month, what with all the shit going on. (I'm out of the bet, so swear time again.(~￣▽￣)~ ) But truth is, things are kind of better. I'm slowly starting to trust Jase again. (I saw him go off on his ex and I was like yass gaga yass.☻ᴥ☻ ) I would've posted sooner, but eh. I've been busy with getting stuff ready for spring break. -flails- ERMERGERD GERS. SPRING BREAK 2014. YASSS. Sorry. Mama lost it for a split second. I was going to spend it with my friend Cuppi, but um. Yah. ._. But no worries, I gots to go prom dress shopping. (◕‿-) Prommmm. DUDE. THIS YEAR IT'S GONNA BE ON A FUCKING BOAT. A LEGIT FUCKING BOAT. With an upper-deck somethin' and another deck somethin'. (wasn't paying attention. spaced out after I heard it was on a fucking boat.) I've got a date to go, and no it's not my boyfriend. Is that bad? I mean, Jase wouldn't like prom anyway. Plus, the guy I'm going with looks just like my cousin. So there are no feelings thurr. It'd be awkward as fuck. xD Like..eeey, cuz, wanna dance? Bleargh. I keep sneezing. Damn you, spring. -sniffle sniffle- But shet, I like posting about prom. ; A ; Me and my date are going with my best friend, Abby, and her boyfriend (lil... -insert bad word- I dun liek him much. -3-) Josh. I'm going sanguine (blood red), and they're going necromancer (violet). It'll be so kawaii. ಥ‿ಥ I like doing kawaii emotes. (◕‿◕✿) Yass. Yaaaass. anyway, I've said it before and I'll say it again, thank you to the absolutely lovely people (person. ahem.) that read this. I do like -sneezes- fawk. -sniffle- Ruined my moment. (¬_¬) Lemme try again. -kneels down like Romeo did- I LURF YOU GAIZ. -sniffle- not again. ; u ; Behehe. I'm done, you get the point.

NEW PARAGRAPH, NEW TOPIC. FK YEA. It's Friday, Friday, gotta get down on Fridayyy~ Ohmylordno. Wtf to talk about. It's been a while since I talked about IMVU. :o and I only talked about it because, y'know, my friend ad blog partner wanted me to. Guess I could talk about that again. Um. There are a lot of creeps on thurr. xD I wish I could give out my username. (even if I did, I wouldn't add anybody I didn't talk to first. >_>;) Neargh. I dun wanna talk about it. -flails- I wanna keep this post going coz it's currently 8:19 a.m. and my class isn't dismissed until 8:53. BLAHHHHH. I think I'm gonna go dick around on the computer. OHWAIT. xD Before I do, I was right about before. (when I said my school has access to my blog) They can monitor everything I post. So, principal, administrators, and just..grownups that read this without my knowledge..EAT A DICK. I don't like you, nor do I like the fact that you read my blog. Df you think I'm doin' anyway? Fuckin' selling secrets to Al Qaeda? Jesus. (¬_¬) LOL. Watch me get called up to the office for being an ass. Oops? c; I think I'm gonna end this post here. Before I get my blogspot deleted by the school. xD Until next time, stay beautiful. Adeau~

Byebye, Blogspot.

     I actually considered skipping school today. Woke up and was like, "mmm, nope." I think I'm gonna make this post a serious one, so if you don't like that, feel free to just read other posts of mine. c: Now, srs tiem. My relationship just keeps getting worse. Well, from my end. With each passing day, I trust Jase less and less all because of mistakes he's made in the past. (in other relationships) His ex is a very very good friend of mine, and has been telling me things that startle me. Normally, when Jase tells me things like, "I'm going out with friends," or, "My parents are taking my phone away," or, "My phone wouldn't charge," I wouldn't bat an eyelid. I trusted him, yeah. But not now. My friend, his ex, told me, and I quote, "I was suspicious, so I called him. A girl answered and said they'd had some fun at his house. When I asked him about it, he claimed it was his sister. Um. His sister doesn't live with them." At which point, I asked Jase if he had a sister. My heart sank when he easily lied and said, "Nope." I don't know who to believe. He tells me the exact same stuff he told her. I'm scared, alone, and just..tired. Physically and emotionally. I don't know how much more I can take. There are so many things I'm already battling..an unsupportive family, failing grades, and a steady decline in friends.

     But whatever. I'll keep going. I'll keep living the oblivious lie that Jase wants me to. And when the time comes, I'll confront him, then finally..I'll just..leave. Back to being alone in a life that's spiraling downward. Yeah, this post is dark and depressing. (like the golden days of yore.) But I do remember warning you. Congrats if you could stomach this post thus far. There shouldn't be any more..um.."dark" posts until the day we um.. :I yeah, break it off. Then I'll write a post bashing on him. (call me a bitter ex, but there are a lot of reasons for me to bash on him, like, now.) I feel better now that I got it out. (considering the fact that I haven't called him out yet) Now that just leaves me with two prominent emotions: tiredness and sorrow. Yes. Sorrow, still. I think it's embedded in me now. There really isn't anything to be happy about. I can't trust anyone. Except, maybe, my family. But, as I said, very unsupportive.

     See, my lovelies? I'm not as happy as my posts lead you to believe. Truth is, I'm the most miserable person I know. But don't pity me, I don't want that. I wrote this simply because keeping it bottled up was making me hurt even more. Now all of you know. And, somehow, that comforts me. I don't think I'll be posting for a while. A long while. (if I do, it'd be random, boring summaries of my day) I'm sorry if this disappoints any of you. But Mama needs time to herself. Time to be alone with her thoughts. Until then, goodbye, my lovelies. Stay beautiful. Adeau~

In with the new!

As you can cleeeearly see, I remodeled my blog. Eh? Ehhh? c; But yiss. Hope you like 'et. Happy Easter, my lovelies! -hops around like a bunny- (wait, it is this weekend, right? ._.) Dunno what else to say. I couldn't wait until I got home to post, so..yeah. xD I'm still in first period. :B Fadadada. I'm hungry. Or something. I dunno, my stomach feels weird. Maybe it's heartburn? W-t-f? Aaaaaanywho, I must be going. Yay for another short post~! Adeau~

F-F-Friday!

Day three of consecutive posting, wtf? (insert something about the rule of threes) Almost no one is in my first period class. o. o Like..nooo one. Is it skip day? Anyway, not sure how I want this post to go. (direction, I mean) I just want this day to be over, I don't have a good feeling about it. Which is scary, because my feelings are almost never wrong. -flails- So yes, um, I've been awake for over 24 hours and I'm incredibly hyper. Nyearghhhh. I dunno what to wriiiiiite. Oh, wait, oh no. I have a test today. Liek. Righ nao. In ten minutes. -reads the board- 52 questions, answer 50 of them, 2 points each. Well, hell. (That's not a bad word, I'M STILL IN LE BET) I'm gonna fail. c': WHY OH WHYYYY.

~~~~~Break to take test~~~~~

 

 

-skip ahead 20 minutes- Uhhhhhuhuhuh. I defs failed. ._. I'm tired now. The lack of sleep is catching up to me. Feel like I'm gonna crash. -facedesk- Only 6 and 1/2 more hours of school. Then what? Well. I think today's mall day with Lauren. Or I could just..sleep. Yeah, I'd like that. See? You can tell I'm tired with just my writing. xD Compare before the test, and now. I'm, like, dead. I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE. Mama needs sleep. There's no fricking way I can stay awake until I get home. My day is literally so chill. It'll be quiet for me, until band, and even then, the music will probably make me pass out in my chair. I can't deal. I feel like just slipping away and sleeping in the janitor's closet.


STAY AWAKE. JUST KEEP SWIMMING. Ugh. Ughhhh. OHEY, tomorrow's me and Jase's anniversary of like..pfffffshshsh..4 months? We got together in November..right after me and my ex broke it off. After Halloween...-does the math- Yes, four months. I had to count on my fingers. ._. But jeez, for teens, four months is a really long time. Surprisingly, we haven't had really any bumpy moments except for these past few weeks. (Sappy tiem.) Jaseeeeey. You probably won't read this. Coz you have no idea that I have a blog. But still. HAPPY ANNI-FUCKIN'-VERSARY. (oop..swore. >_<) -flails- You might not remember, but I doooo. :D I just noticed. I keep flailing. o. o -flails-


But anyway. -yawns- Probably won't post this weekend because of Easter and shit. (oop, did it again. ._.) ARGHHH HOW DID I FORGET TO POST ABOUT EASTER?!? OMGGGZZZZ. I'll make that my next post. Like, tonight, after Jase bails on movie night again. (yes, again. but that's another story) So, I've got nothing to do until next period. Um. .____. And this post can't go much further. I'll end it here. You'll be hearing from me again real soon. I promise. -holds up my pinkie finger- c: Until then, stay beautiful, my lovelies. Adeau~

The Bet and Other Fun Things

OHAIOOOO. c: Holy crap, I've posted two days in a row? Whaaaaat? I know what you're thinkin'. Whoa, Jenn, slow down, Jenn, ermergerd, Jern. But yes. ACT testing has ended, so, rlly, I've got nothing else to do until finals. Which are in June. BUT ANYWAY. I bet you're wondering about the title. A bet? What bet? Wtf? Wonder no more, my lovelies. "The Bet" is a little competition I have going on with a few friends. It's simple, we kill the Batman. Normally, I'm a really rude, crude, violent person. (Jesus, I'm freaking psycho.) Buuuuut, I made a bet to my friends (erherm "friends") that I could be nice for an entire seven days. Which means no cursing, no yelling, no giving people the finger (which is difficult for me), and no being mean. It's already incredibly hard. I tried to make the bet before, but forfeitted within 10 minutes. ._. (Genius Jenn strikes again.)

But yes. (Second time saying that,WEUH.) The "other fun things" is referring to me almost getting that freshman off my ass. (NOT. SEXUALLY. Well, maybe. He is a perverted lil..nyehhh.) As probably none of you know, me and my ex-co-writer are no longer friends. It ended badly. Like, very badly. -sigh- And that put me into a mood of violence and anguish. Which kind of..um..gets in the way of my bet. And this lil freshman (I'm gonna call him Bob to protect identities), Bob got in my way when I was in this bad mood. I kept staring off into space, sadly, of course, and he leans in and stares at me. I viciously say, "What." He didn't get that I was angry. -_(\ So he started to walk me to class again, to which I promptly said (more like sneered) "You don't have to walk me to class, you know" and gave him the :I face. Without batting an eyelid, he said, "I know, but my class is this way, so I might as well." Kid. Really? -facedesk- He then passed up his classroom. Honestly? -_- Get off my ass, bruh. You wanna lick my ass? Ass-licking, dick-munching...~ (IT WAS JENNA MARBLES, NOT ME. I'M NOT IN VIOLATION OF MY BET.)

Anywhooo.I'm out of class soon. So, I'll see my lovelies tomorrow. Until then, stay beautiful. Adeau~

Ayy.

So, yes, hello, my lovelies. (Not doing class work again. Like a boss.) It's only been 17 days since I last posted, yet a shitstorm has broken loose. :I Yee. Righ? Riiiiigh? No. D:< Wait, what? ._. ANYWAY. This freshman kid. Oh yes. xD Ahem. I'M GOING TO HACK HIM APART WITH....WITH.... Mama has no idea. But srsly kid, back off my chest area. -3- Jenn access only, please. No, wait, okay, so this kid will make up an excuse to touch them. >_> KID. STAPH. I wonder what he'd do if I was just like, "Kid, I'm gay. So, stop, pls." Ohmygod. -dead- I'm so done with this little kid. Yeah, I'm not much older, but daaaang. He acts like a child, going all big-eyed whenever he sees my..my..err..you know. Just look on the internet if you wanna see some so badly. -flails- And, I wanted to say thank you to the lovely person that commented on my last post. c: I wasn't even going to write today, but when I saw that you'd wanted to read more and not delete my blog, I had to write again! ~3~ It tickles me to see when someone comments. It makes me feel all cool-like. And not a loser. :D Okokok, getting off track. Like always. ._. I must go, my people need me. Not really, but I do have to end this post hurr because of class and whatnot. Until next time, stay beautiful, my lovelies. Adeau~

Only Three Posts?

This entire year of 2014, I've only posted three times. ; ^ ; MAMA IS SORRY. Okay. So, I literally just posted. Like. Five minutes ago. But I felt compelled to write another one. Because, you know, YOLO and whatnot. c; My God, I'm retarded. ._. I never thought I'd get this far on the post. I have nothing else I wanna say. (I do, but it's serious, and this blog has had enough serious for one day, what, with me sharing my feelings.) Hooray for a short-ass post. If I'm not busy in Computer Apps tomorrow, I'll post again. Because, surprisingly, a lot of shit happens between now and tomorrow morning. Yep. Uh, yeah. Until then, adeau. Stay beautiful, my lovelies~

Weekend Blues

No Jase this weekend. Sad Jenn is sad. ; A ; But anyway, there's a really bad winter storm warning, and, um, I'm terrified. Storms scare me, and mix in ice and...oh. Shit. It's supposed to, like, rain. Then freeze and be windy and shet. (In other words, I'm scurred.)  Hokai. I dunno what to make this post about, really. I'm still debating on deleting this blog. (I'm not using it for its intended purpose anyway.) But yeah. This post is all over the place. ._. I apologize, I just woke up. -yawn- It's 2 in the afternoon. Aw, shet. I have school tomorrow. And the ACT on Tuesday. But tomorrow's "Food Day" so I'll be good. :} Food makes mama happy. ; ^ ; On a different note, I think (if I don't delete this blog), I'll start posting more regularly. I'll leave notes in obvious places so I won't forget. I promised I'd post more before, but in all honesty, I kept forgetting I had a blog. (I'm a genius.) I dunno what writing style my readers like, and I dunno if I even still have readers. Words can't even describe how grateful I am for my readers. You guys are seriously amazing. It makes me feel like I have friends, even if you guys are just "readers". (Serious time.) I love you guys. Really, I do. (Not in a creepy way, don't worry. I'm not gonna, like, fangirl if I see you out on the streets. Wtf Jenn. Back on track.) If you have any suggestions on what I should write about, tell me. Leave a comment. I'll write on anything from current events, to how to do something. Let's interact, my children! ಠ_ಠ Until then. Stay golden, my lovelies.